Last night we had a fight.
I finally lost my mind when i threw my 11 Minutes book I intended to read when I’m answering the nature’s call. I don’t know why my husband suddenly get irritated with what i’m going to do. Selama ni pun memang aku selalu sangat bawak leaflet SOGO, IKEA or kadang-kadang buku Impiana tu utk mudahkan my business in the loo. But i never told him those. I mean, takkan nak bagitau:
“yang, i bawak leaflet sogo ye masuk toilet, nak mudahkan berak”
I mean? Seriously, must i tell him about it or mintak izin just to have my private time?
The fight started with the whatsapp issue.
He claimed i am too obsessed with whatsapp that i text everyone in my list whenever i can. Well, frankly i don’t get to whatsapp during office hjur because the network at my office is terrible. Secondly, i only whatsapp during lunch break or while i am in the meeting as those are the time is accessible to network and meeting? who doesn’t get bored during long hours meeting?. thirdly, chatting through whatsapp with my office colleagues, the groups from my squadmate and dept really make me happy. So why can’t he be happy with what i’m doing?
I really feel that he has taken me for granted. Sebelum kawin dulu bukan main lagi jaga aku. Dulu sebut je sakit kepala dia lah manusia yang sampai dulu just nak bawak aku pi klinik or rub my back. But now, kepala macam nak pecah kena migrain jangan harap nak rub my back, kalau boleh dia nak aku mampus cepat-cepat kot.
Owh! this is reality. I have to agree with those opinions yang lepas kawen jangan harap la boleh bermanja. Or lepas kawen everything is different. IT IS SO SO TRUE!!
Kita perempuan try our best to give our husband the best. We try to be expressive in everything but please jangan harap sangat la to get reciprocation. Sangat bertuah kalau perempuan tu dapat husband macam tu.
I did ask him once, where is the old you sayang? the one who cares so much about me? the one who let me touch him whenever i want? the one who is so romantic and loving?
And man… being a man. He just kept quiet and leave me with no answer until today.
So, sayang please don’t blame me if i look for a cheap entertainment like whatsapp. You hardly talk to me these days so let me talk to my group of friends who’s willing to listen.